Milla Venus

Aku dah lama minat kat dia. Dia tak lah baik mana. Nak kata jahat pon tak. Lebih kepada baik, my guess. Hehe.Ya, memang kawan2 dia lagi cantik daripada dia. Tapi... Aku memang minat kat dia. Her looks, her style, herself. Look at her. Very cute, attractive, and decent. I mean... How did she do that?? Hari ni masa tunggu bas, dia pon ada. Dia datang ke arah aku. Dupdapdupdap. Dia senyum. Arghhh~ melting wey! Pastu dia... Duduk. Baru aku perasan, sebelah aku kosong. Tapi... Still... Dia duduk sebelah aku. Aku sangat gembira hari ini. Oh, look at her phone chain. Ada bendera Palestine. How thoughtful. Oh~ birthday dia 8 April. I hope she is younger than me. Hmm...By her look, she is. Kau kat mana? Kau kat mana tu? Jadi budak perempuan tu? Atau jadi lelaki stalker tu? Hahaha. Yeah, I made up that story. Dan kalau kau feeling masa baca, kau ada masalah terlalu banyak berangan. Aku sarankan kau berhenti tengok cerita cinta dan berhenti baca novel, serta berhenti baca buku motivasi cint...

Just like politics and economy, and calculus expression and formula. They are all complicated and very hard to understand. But that it how it works.

Aku rasa enn... Aku rasa laa... Aku rasa... Macam ada seseorang yang rasa aku ni bijak la. Hahaha. Aku memang bijak la. Kalau kau suka aku enn... Kalau la, kalau kau suka aku... Masuk la minang ye? Aku nak kawen umur 23 tahun. Haha. Tapi mak aku suruh kawen sekali dengan adik aku. Adik aku dia nak kawen umur 24. So maknanya masa dia umur 24, aku umur 25. (Kesiannya aku... Kena tangguh perkahwinan aku. TT.TT) Oh, ye. Lupa nak cakap... Hmm.. Kalau kau lambat, melepas ah. rugi la kau. Haha. Sebab aku ni dah la bijak, baik, cantik pulak tu. Bhahaha. OK sekarang korang decide la tajuk ni patutnya jadi perasaan atau perasan? (Walaupun jawapannya cukup obvious)

waktu aku baca soalan ini, aku boleh describe siapa aku. “aku seorang yang lain daripada yang lain. aku ada ability to not study and still pass with flying colours. aku cantik, in my very own way. i’m simply amazing” and i’m happy with that. tapi aku tak perasan yang ada satu lagi soalan yang perlu aku jawab : apa matlamat aku? aku… aku tak tahu. and that brings me to the next question, “apa yang aku boleh jadi dengan being amazing like i mention earlier?” …. a good student… a good… nothing? and that’s it. there is where I stuck. let me tell you from the beginning. aku start berfikir pasal cita-cita aku secara serious waktu aku form 3. Aku nak jadi fashion designer. because that is my passion. PMR aku… agak bagus. bukan agak. memang bagus pon. 7A1B? kalau tak silap aku. aku tak minat science. So, aku nak masuk kelas art. or at least… kelas account la.pandai sikit kan~ haha. tapi aku tak dapat. aku kena masuk kelas pure science. aku minta tukar. aku nak tukar. aku cakap ...

Because... That's what I like.

Hye. Umm... I've been writing quite... Often now, huh? Haha. I guess I'm just.... You know. Hmm... Stressed. Gotta admit that I missed my friends at UiTM Arau. And also our lecturers. They are awesome. It's really different here. Very very different. Okay. Hmm... Since diploma, I just... Let fate choose a path for me. I mean... Since after school, when I filled UPU, and don't even remember what I've chose. And I got an offer from UiTM. It's CS110. I don't even know what it is. I don't even want to go. But, it turns out okay. And... Fun. And now I'm here. UiTM Shah Alam, CS243, AI. My first choice. But why am I not happy? I don't feel like... I'm doing the right thing. I don't know where am I going? I... Don't even know what am I doing here. I... I don't know.

I'm not ready to sign this. I'm zo sorry~ TT. TT