Milla Venus

I tend to forget things that make me upset. I don't want to remember things that can make me dull. It works. Fine. At first. But when things get hard, or as time fly by it came hunting me back. Yes, I don't remember what makes me upset. However it does not make me not upset to a person who causes it. & what makes it become more frustrating? I don't have an explaination to my feeling (sad/dissapointed/anger) towards a person & that makes me feel bad about myself. So as I sit alone, wondering why I feel such, then only I recalled things, issues that I erase/ignore. Then it makes me feel slighly better. But. I. Need. More. I need to solve it. Not just knowing. I need the apology I never get. I need to sooth this anger. I need to forgive, but to forgive I need an apology. A simple "sorry for ......(things said & done)" would be enough. I need it. I freakin' need it because without it, my brain would have forget but not my heart. But it was 5 years ago.

It's okay to be afraid. It's okay to have doubt. It's okay to run. Any healthy minded person would run away. Not just you. It's fine. I'm fine. I 've not experienced this feeling for such a long time. At least now i know that i'm capable of love. I don't hate you & i wont. It was a sweet 3 weeks for me. Thank you for stopping by. I wish you best of luck in finding someone who can truly loves you back.

I'm trying to be a better person, a better friend. So i kinda need new environment. Sorry to those who feel like i've neglected them. I'm not. I really not. But i need space & in that space i don't need you. Kahkah. Sound so cruel to me but... Really. Please. Just let me. I'll be involving myself with you real soon. As soon as i get all the time & space i needed. Thanks. Luv ya. 😘 #muahciked

Assalamualaikum. Hye.  I can't sleep so here i am. Feel like writing something. Maybe my head just can't bear too much if everything, so... Yeah. I'm writing out some so it could leave my head. I used to think that money is everything. You can even buy happiness with money. Well, it's still true that money actually do buy you happiness. I mean, how can you be happy not having a place to sleep, nice meals to eat & you know. Stuff like that. Haha. But... I've came to realize that money is not everything. Thanks to a friend whom i always said I'm a materialistic lady & treated me like one by kept buying me stuff that i don't even ask. Haha. It make me sick. I mean seriously. It does make me sick; Receiving lots of stuff i don't even need. Well, i won't blame anyone for thinking that i'm materialistic because I do. Sometimes. But. Idk anymore. I always talk about marrying a rich guy, & big houses & money & stuff. But. But... I fin

Semalam (16/1/2015) adalah satu hari yang begitu mengujakan bagi aku sebab... Finally aku boleh bangun tidur tanpa berfikir pasal uitm. Wohoo! Dan aku juga dah beli phone baru. Right after my last final exam paper (15/1/2015, Thu) Hehe. Sebab... Seriously, you would do the same if you were me. Hari last final, kau ada duit, dan handphone kau dah rosak. Screen retak, memory card damaged, main camera undetected. Siapa yang nak pakai handphone macam tu? Well, sebenarnya ada. Aku. Semenjak 3 bulan lepas. Desperate me. Haha. Tapi alhamdulillah, duit JPA dah masuk. Tu yang senang sikit hidup tu. Nak beli apa pon boleh. Harap2 aku tak membazir lah 😅 But yesterday was not a perfect day pon. Nothing exciting really happen. Cuma... Iyelah, i'm excited about the gathering je. Last minute planning actually. Baru start suggest masa budak ai habis final exam, and tiba2 je nak buat keesokan harinya. Itu pun baru confirmkan semalam, 2 jam sebelum masanya.  Kitorang plan nak jumpa kat Pizza Hut se

As expected. Can't sleep. Didn't sleep.