it’s disturbing
i realize how things around me rapidly change. and i… recently realize that there is also things that doesn’t. i believe that I’ve been sent to somewhere for a reason. but until now, i haven’t seen anything that could be a reason to be there. and now… I got only about 4 month to discover about the reason behind these 2 years of journey. it’s disturbing. it’s scary. yes, i’m scared of the future. well, i supposed to be scared. i’m 20. and within this 5 years, I will have to work for myself. question is, what? what work should i do? who will i become? i didn’t see a clue about my future. it made me think… maybe the reason behind my long journey is… dead. yes, i’m scared! but i can’t stop now. can i? my future is mine to discover. dead is something very sure to every soul. in this next 4 month, i’ll face my fate. if it is dead waiting for me, then so be it. if it is not, maybe the reason is something I didn’t see and not meant for me to discover yet or maybe never. what ever it i